Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Cancer Bitch - Wednesday Edition

Routine visit with Doctor at Hopkins today. Very routine. He gave me 3 options for chemo treatment and ruled out radiology - for the time being. Now I have to wait for the clinical trial nurse to call and schedule chemo. We called it a day and had lunch in Little Italy.

Back to Hopkins

Back off to Johns Hopkins today (The Emerald City) to see what the wizard can tell me. Its cold, its miserable, and I have the distinct feeling that I will NOT see a decent crab cake today. I'm ready for them this time, too! I'm bringing an overnight back in case they decide to keep me overnight again - no butt-flapping hospital gown this time!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Monday, December 28th - the Birth of Cancer Bitch

I avoided it all day. The doctors at Johns Hopkins had told me that they wouldn't have the results of my biopsys until Monday - but I avoided calling until late in the day. And, since denial is not just a river in Egypt they told me the bad news - its cancer and its spread.
There was a lot of yadda yadda about treatments and clinical trials, but I just climbed into bed and put the covers over my head. I gave myself 2 and a half hours (til 8pm EST) to feel sorry for myself because the "Community" marathon was coming on NBC. I did tell relatives - and they blew up my phone. I figure this time I'll try a blog.....

My sister in law, who has also had health issues at Johns Hopkins, says you go from "Good Patient" to "bad patient" real fast. The "Good Patient" waits patiently for every test and endures every needle, hoping that someone, anyone, can tell her what's wrong. The "Bad Patient" wonders why the fuck someone has to wake you at 3am to take a temperature!